The fishy world

A back breaking Catch report from sabah

2006-04-17T21:56:00.000-07:00

It was another good fishing trip from KK and from the title u will know why. Everyone back and arm was aching after battling with the Japanese red, kersi bali and white fish. I was surprised by the average size we bought up. All of them are ard 3-5kg range and they really fight hard and fight all the way from a depth of 120m.

Overall we caught many good eating fish like coral trout, roaster fish, pearl bass ( the boatman said it cost $60/kg),ang kuah etc. However no monster was landed but we lost 3 big ones, one was a cobia at least 12kg lost at the boat side, one to the structure and the last one just took off like a bullet train and we managed to burst the leader after it took 300m of line.

Here is a brief summary of the trip…….

Day 1
I started off with a bang as I landed 2 coral trout ( 2kg and 1kg), after which I was super unlucky as I did not managed to land any decent fish until the next day afternoon. The bite rate was slow and even the table size grouper and kee fish is also not cooperating. Night fishing was as bad. No mack no fish bigger than 2 kg was landed. After 4 am, even the small fish is not biting too.

Day 2
Ard 6am the bite started to come in, we managed to land quite a number of job fish and long nose emperor all ard 2-3kg. But the bite stop after an hour. The boat man keep changing spot but we still only managed a few table size fish.

Then he decided to head to a deeper spot ard 120-130m and there was where we hit the jackpot. The kersi bali was all ard 3-5kg and the bite was quite constant every few min some one will land one. The crew managed to bring up an amberjack ard 9kg. So I decided to try for amberjack so I hooked a table size kersi bali and waited for the bite. The bite came but there was no amberjack but an even bigger kersi bali.

As night fall, we managed to catch a lot of sotong and we use them as bait. Then the real action begin, double and triple hookup was common as the we brought up one after another white fish and Japanese red all ard 3-5kg. They really give us a good run for our money, taking line out constantly thru out the fight. By midnight, everyone don’t dare to put their line down as they are too tire to fight anyone fish. I was still enjoying myself fighting them. But they decided to head back to shore…..SIAN!!!!!!!!

LL no choice have to follow the majority…..

But I was tired too but enjoying every moment cos it is rare chance to encounter such big school of big fish…

Overall catch
White fish at least 90pics
Kersi bali ard 20 odd
Japanese red ard 15
Coral trout ard 15
Long nose emperor 10
Bone fish 2( super rare to find such fish is deep water)
Pearl bass 15
Many other coral fish like kee fish, grouper, ang kuah, mangrove jack job fish,….

Total weight est more than 600kg….

Enjoy the pics…..

i love u kathie...

2006-04-17T21:43:00.000-07:00

Is vitaMIN good for me ? haha!!!!

2006-04-17T21:29:00.000-07:00

Dear blog,

Huh… had not updated anything so far. It is not that I am busy but just don’t feel like updating anything. I guess I am still in a state of making the correct decision but hahaha!!!! I still have not decided. Anyway the title has no link to my posting haha only someone will know wat is means haha!!!!

Anyway I will update in short the entire happening events that took place over the last few weeks.

Let me start off with the camping trip to kota tinggi. It was supposed to be a fishing trip to hunt down huge huruan but in the end it turns more to be a camping trip. I had fun building fire and setting up tent, cooking with solid fuel and eating from the mass tin. It brings back good memories of my army days.

Another highlight was buying a golden retriever puppy for my mum. It was her birthday gift and I must thank Andrew for sharing it with me. Her name is Kathie but I always call her kate haha!!! She very cute and tame, my mum just love her. Not only my mum loves her, my whole family just loved her. I guess she is the queen now in my house. I will post her pics in other posting....

Last but not the least; I must thank someone who made my day by just talking to her online every morning. I enjoyed just her company and just feel very comfortable with her. Yup I once fell for her but I got a feeling I am falling for her again. Huh I don’t whether it is a right thing. As both of us just got out of a relationship and I guess it will be good to just give each other more time. I guess if she is really for me then only time can tell.

So for now I will just enjoy myself with the many fishing trip that awaits me YEAH!!!

Cheers
Getting happier each day, I love u…..kate…..

fishing king reigns....

2006-03-22T18:56:00.000-08:00

Dear blog,

Weekend was good as I managed to hit top form during my last fishing trip. I guess my fishing form is slow coming back again. During recent southern island fishing trip, I caught the most and also the biggest too. However the overall catch was not very impressive but just average.

This is the overall catch:
2 Golden Snapper aka ACK ( 3kg, 1kg)
1 sweetlip aka Kaci (1kg)
1 stripped snapper aka timun (1kg)
3 deep sea bass
1 spotted stingray

However last Saturday night was also another interesting affair. I managed to meet up my good old friend and we watched a super complex movie, V for Vendetta. Wow this show really forces me to think hard in order to understand what the hell is going on. I miss such movie as I had not watched such abstract movie for a long time. But the company was great even though we only spent a few hours together. I will be looking forward to another date with her again. Hahaha my so call cai hehehe you ji hui…

Just had my last JCRC meeting last night, finally I can let my guys focus on their studies now. But I guess there will not be any rest for me as I still have the HAS to worry, JHOC event to settle, Rec list to compile and of cos my IA. Guess it will be a busy period for me as everyone is busy preparing for their exam and I am the only one with no exam worries. No worries man, that is the president job to oversee everything. I guess my days are numbered. Within months it will our FOC and DnD. After which I will be handing over my baton to another person. What life is after handing over? Will I be happy or sad? Will I be relieved or worried? Will I be bored? All these questions suddenly run thru my mind. Reigns

I love fishing…..

dream come true

2006-03-17T00:44:00.000-08:00

Dear blog,

It was night to remember as I managed to fulfill my dream. My dream of organizing a join hall event initialized by hall 2 every year was fulfilled this year. For the last 2 years when I was a social sec and pres, I chaired and organized NTU very first night blazer or Pasar Malam. The first time we managed to get hall 1, 2 and 6 to joining organized this event and the turn out was pretty good. We had around 18 stalls and the turnout was very good. The second time was event better as with a few more halls joined us. We managed to get ard 25 stalls. However the main objective of bringing our residents closer together thru interaction was achieved and I guess everyone enjoyed the food and the shopping.

This year I was tired of organizing and decided to hand over this job to my cultural sec to organize a join hall cultural night. No doubt it was a tough job for peiqi but I guess she did a great job with the help of hall 1 cultural sec and both cultural group too. They managed to impress everyone that there are so many talented people in hall.

I managed to fulfill my dreams and also the dreams of the last few president of hall 2. I guess when I step down next semester; it will be surely satisfying as I know I had accomplished something that many ex hall 2 pres had dreamt of doing it, bringing the halls closer together.

3 cheers for hall 2!!!!!

My first singing experience

2006-03-15T00:43:00.000-08:00

Dear blog,

I was happily doing my work at my desk and suddenly something struck me. This something comes in waves. Yup sound waves from the radio, it knew where to find the weakest part of my body, my heart. It did strike and it struck so hard that I decided to post my feelings.

When it struck me, I started to think of last year MAF. I still can remember I dragged her to sing with me and it was super last minute as we only practiced the night before. When it was reaching our turn to sing, I went back to my room to look for her. Indeed both of us were nervous esp me as it was the first time for myself to sing in front of such a big crowd. When we were walking back, the whole crowd was cheering and calling for us. Super embarrassing man!

Anyway we went on stage and sang our song. The song we sang at that time truely show how we felt for each other and when both of us were singing it was from our hearts. We sang this song for each other and we sang this song for us as it represents how we feel about each other. Those will the times……………………………….

Will those times we had enjoying each other be just history or will this history repeat itself but with another ending.

Anyway as expected we did not win anything but I guess I had fun and it was a good experience. But one thing for sure I know, I am not born to sing hehehe!!!!

I decided to post this song in English hahaha took me awhile to translate it.

Choose

Male: In the windy days, we smile and look at the falling flowers.

Female: In the snowy season, we toast to the moon.

Male: Such a feeling.

Female: Such a journey.

Together: We went through it together.

Female: I wish you can love me until the land becomes old and the sky becomes desolated.

Male: I wish you can accompany me to the cape and the ends of the world.

Together: Even if I have to start everything all over again, I will not change my decision.

Together: I have chosen you. You have chosen me.

Female: I certainly will love you loyally.

Male: I certainly will accompany you until the seas are dry and the rocks are crumbled.

Together: Even if I return to the beginning, this is still my only decision.

Together: I have chosen you. You have chosen me. This is our choice.

Male: We went through the spring and fall.

Female: We see of today and tomorrow again.

Male: Day after day.

Female: Month after month. Year after year.

Together: Our heart will not change.

Together: I certainly will love you loyally.

Together: I certainly will accompany you until the seas are dry and the rocks are crumbled.

Together: Even if I return to the beginning, this is still my only decision.

I had chosen my path wats urs………

Well done 22nd JCRC...

2006-03-13T00:35:00.000-08:00

Dear blog,

Hall dinner was great but I don’t know whether I should be disappointed or sad. The venue was great and the food was superb. But we did not expect the turnout to be so good. We can only have 12 tables of 12 chairs in the ball room and we added another 20 chairs just in case. However which these amount of chairs were still not enough for everyone, we tried together with the management to solve this problem but there were limitation in how much we can do. The club house ran out of chairs. In the end most of our JCRC do not have a chair.

However I am extremely please with this event. It is not because the turn was good or the food was superb. But it was the effort I saw from my JCRC that made this event a success. Everyone from the starting of the planning to the preparation and on the actual day itself knew what need to done and all of them took their initiative. The videos were the best and I guess Shiwei really work hard to bring to us such touching videos.

Finally my term is ending soon, what it be like one year from now. Will there still be a hall dinner, will the respond be as good, and will there be even a JCRC. All these uncertainties will be the biggest challenge to the next com. But rests assure the next pres that I will be here to help cos hall 2 spirit is always in my heart.

Thanks 22nd JCRC and Hall 2 ROCKS!!!

Catch report from jurong island

2006-03-12T16:57:00.000-08:00

I was called upon to organize a fishing trip for my friend’s friends and they are all new to fishing. I quickly suggest to them to try day fishing off tekong area as the catch was pretty good over the past few weeks. But all of them prefer to fish at night so there is only one option which is to fish ard southern island or off Jurong Island near the near firing area.

The night they chose was a tough and challenging one as the current is very strong from evening to the next day early morning. So I guess I have to dig up all my heavy tackle for them. We managed to buy 2kg of kelong sotong which in the end we used only half a kg.

Finding the correct boat was tough as it is hard to find a boat to fit 9 ppl in it. Finally one of my friend managed to get a boat at from pandan river and I cant remember his name, it is a malay boatman.

Anyway we met up in the evening and headed out to our first spot off tuas reclaim land breakwaters as we can’t fish in the open channel as the current was still very strong. The water is pretty calm and we managed to get more than 30 pics of sotong. All of them had fun catching them too. I had only 4 heavy rods and decided to lend my rods to them and I will settle for handline.

We spent the whole night ard the breakwaters and managed only 3 ack ard 1kg. However nothing was landed on rods, all on handline only. 2 by the capt and one by me. Ard 5am we decided to move out to the open waters near the live firing area. I got a big bite shortly after we anchored but I loss the fish as I did not set the hook properly. Mins later the capt bought up 1 ack ard 3kg. Wat a waste!!!! I hooked up another fresh sotong and was praying hard to God for another chance. True enough the bite came and the fish is on. After putting out a good fight on my handline, a 3kg plus ack was hauled up, this woke everyone and everyone started to fish. However dog fish decided to pay some of us a visit.

Suddenly one of my friends was hooked onto a monster that was peeling his line in an alarming rate. I knew was something real big as my charter special will only get bullied if the fish is above 10kg. The way the fish fight don’t seems to be a ray but looks more like a chermin to me as it keeps on making strong runs. Finally after 20 min of fight, we saw some colour, it was sliver but alittle longish so chermin is out. Could it be threadfin? Hahaha… it was a duri aka marine catfish. This is the biggest marine catfish I seen so far. I est it ard 12-14kg.

Anyone have any other guess?

Overall catch
Ack 5 ( 3 1kg, 2 3kg) all on handline
Duri 12kg
A few kelong chi, dog fish

I guess the most traditional method maybe the best method after all.

On the whole with such a strong current night we still managed to bring out a number of decent catch, I feel it is a good outing. I guess my friends had a great time talking cock, catch sotong and witnessing big fishes been caught. I really enjoy the company and I hope I had slowly poisoned them with some fishing’s drugs. One day they will be like us been addicted to fishing hehhe!!!

My DC is finally back after it died on me last week. I will upload the pics soon. cheers Samuel

finally....

2006-03-07T00:47:00.000-08:00

Dear blog,

My weekend cant get any better. It started off with an over night fishing trip off southern island. It started off badly as we were late due to some last min cock up and miscommunication but it was back on track the moment we landed our first fish. That night was interesting as most of our fish we caught were using kelong sotong instead of the always reliable live sotong. Anyway my good buddy was in top form as he landed the most fish and also the biggest too, 13kg leopard ray. I will try to post some pic after I get my digital camera fixed.

The next highlight was on sat evening when my team finally won our first game after losing 2 games in a row. However what made my day was that I finally got my confident back. I was scoring and getting the rebound that I used to be and playing with more composure now. Finally after screwing up some games, I found some confident back. Just hope I keep up my play style and continue to win the remaining 11 games in division B basketball league.

She msg me again. She said that she don’t bear to let me go but she is still confused about what she wants. Haiz. I told myself so many time that I have to move on and forget abt the past. But every time she msg me I will suddenly feel that there is some hope. Some hope that ‘the day’ will come, ‘the day’ that I waited for so long. But she always never concluded after msging me and left me hanging there. So many times she did it to me, and yet why am I still waiting for her. Why why why……..

Every time she msg me, I will be so happy as I know she still thinks of me. But every time she does that, I will keep telling myself that ‘the day’ may happen. How can I ever move on? I need to be decisive and make up my mind fast. But my heart is so weak and soft. How can I get over so one I once love so much?

I did ask her abt what she really wants. A guy will love you always and will be willing to give up and leave everything behind just for her or a guys who she thinks will last and give her what she think she really wants. But what do she really want? Big house or fast car or loving family and husband or what?

I told myself so many times that life goes and I should not get some affected by this matter. But the last 3 months was the most miserable time of my life. This is the song of the moment.

How do I
Get through one night without you
If I had to live without you
What kind of life would that be?
Oh I need you in my arms
Need you to hold
Your my world my heart my soul
If you ever leave
Baby you'd take away everything good in my Life.

~~~~~~~~

And tell me now
How do I live without you
I want to know
How do I breathe without you
If you ever go
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I
How do I
O how do I live?.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Without you
There'd be no sun in my sky
There would be no love in my life
There would be no world left for me
And I
Baby I don't know what I would do
I would be lost if I lost you
If you ever leave
Baby you would take away everything real in My life

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

And tell me now
How do I live without you
I want to know
How do I breathe without you
If you ever go
How do I ever ever survive?
How do I
How do I
O how do I live?...

~~~~~~~~~

Please tell me baby..

How do I go on?

Thank you so much

2006-02-27T23:40:00.000-08:00

Dear blog,

I really don’t know how should I feel. Angry at her for the way she treated me, sad cos she said it is over, disappointed at the way we ended, happy cos she finally tell me how she feel or should I feel nothing at all cos the depression hang over seems to numb all my feelings.

She finally decided to tell me that it was over. I guess I have to share part of the fault too as I talk to her friends abt us and even wrote her parents an email. Don’t misunderstand that I wrote that email to complain abt her but I wrote this mail to really thank then for all the wonderful things they did to me. They blessed me with their TLC with I injured my knee and cant even walk. They treated me like their son when I had my wisdom teeth and was in total pain and cant eat anything. Yup they are truly great parents and I was hoping to acknowledge them as my parents too but I guess it will be tough now.

Anyway my weekend was just sleeping, sleeping and sleeping Zzzzz……

This pig here needs lots of sleep hehhee!!!!! I had really slept more than 15 hrs every weekend. I guess IA really took away lots of my sleep and weekend is the best time to recover my beauty sleep.

ZZzzzz……..

"PRODUCTIVE"

2006-02-23T01:18:00.000-08:00

Dear blog,

I had a ‘productive’ day at work today as I was msning the whole day hehehe!!!! But to me it was a productive day as I did a lot of catching up with my old love. Had never tot I will be able to talk to her and share abt all those I wanted to her her last time. The best thing is that she also told me how she felt for me during that time. We laughed abt it and also ask ourselves wat if……

Anyway I really had serious tot abt her, wat if I when against my principal and woo her. Wat if we were really together, how will it turn out. I guess things will be different and I guess many things will not had happened if I am with her. But I guess everything happens for a reason so I guess I should think so much abt wat if and start to think abt wat will……..

wat if....

wat a tiring weekend

2006-02-23T01:15:00.000-08:00

Dear blog,

It has being quite awhile ever since I last posted anything. Lots of stuff happened other that few days. Some good and some bad, but I guess on the whole it was still ok.

The weekend was super tire as I hardly slept a few hours from Thursday until Saturday. Firstly it was a majong session with my dear toilet mate who is moving out soon so I guess I will like to spend more time with him. Then on Friday night it was our hall round eating trip and I had fun talking cock and feasting on all the tasty food in Gelyang. I also had did a lot of catching up with my dear buddy weizhang.

Saturday morning was work followed by the Ntu nanyang fishing competiton. Wow back to back activities were killing me. In the evening I had a basketball game and follow by my hall alumni dinner. By the time it was Sunday, I slept for almost 24 hrs.

I guess I getting old liao and I cant carry on with such life style. I will probably faint if I don’t sleep on Sunday. Anyway weekend was just nothing but hectic work load and tiring. It was so tiring that I did not have much time to do any catching up with any of our hall seniors.

I waited yet another weekend for her reply but there is still no response. How long does she wants me to wait. I know the chances is next to zero but I just want she to explain to me what happened.

The waiting game continues…….

the pain of crying

2006-02-16T23:09:00.000-08:00

Dear blog,

A lot of people claim that after u cry, u feel better cos u will have released all ur anger and sadness. However I dont think it is true, I cried like a baby last night and yet I did not feel better after which. Why? I did not cried out very loudly but I cried out very painfully. I cried like a baby who drops his fav toy onto the floor and don’t know when his mother will pick it up for him. He cried and cried and yet there was still no one responding to him. How long can this baby cry until he begin to get over the lost of his fav toy. How long?

I did not know this little happy moment for someone will become one of the saddest moment for me. I was controlling my tears when it just started then suddenly every details of that moment last year started to flash back in my mind. From the moment I took over the mic and the moment I sang the first word to the moment I pass her the flowers and kissed her. Suddenly it keeping flashing over and over again in my mind, the tune, the atmosphere and the look of her eyes. I was singing and looking straight into her eyes. Telling her I made every single line of that song and remembering her shed first drop of tears rowing down her cheeks. It was all this details that burst me into tears. I cried and cried ask myself why this and why that.. It was the first time I cried over a girl and people said that “ big man don’t cry one”. Ya right if u are in my shoes I bet u will cry too.

To add more sorrow I should post the song too…..

I want to make you smile
whenever you're sad,
carry you around when your arthritis is bad.
All I want to do,
is grow old with you.

I’ll get you medicine when your tummy aches,
build you a fire when the furnace breaks.
Oh it could be so nice,
growin’ old with you.

I’ll miss you, kiss you,
give you my coat when you are cold.
Need you, feed you,
even let you hold the remote control.
So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink,
put you to bed when you’ve had too much to drink.
Oh I could be the man,
that grows old with you,
I wanna grow old with you.

do u still treasure this moment.........

i will never drink so much again

2006-02-15T20:30:00.000-08:00

Dear blog,

I promise I will never so much again. It really feels so wasted after been drank. I never tot been drank can be there terrible. I started to vomit everywhere and very frequently. I really don’t know how many ppl did I vomited on. Wow!!! So embarrassing man. Anyway it was free flow and free entrance at dbl O on vday. So the three losers with no dates decided to wonder around town area and hope we can find something to do. Initially we wanted to sing out hearts out at K-box but to our surprised it was fully booked until 2am. WTF I tot only restaurant and movie will be fully booked, really did not know that KTV will be so popular on vday.

So we had no choice but to wonder around and hope to find something to do. Guess what! We happened to walk pass dbl O and realised that it was free flow amd free entrance to 11pm. WOW!!! What are we waiting for? We went in and really whack lots of drinks. I guess we had 16 mugs of beer and 20 over cups of house pour. We played drinking games and guess luck is not on my side as I drank almost 70% of the drinks we ordered. So that is how I got completely drank and found myself the next day on my good friend jo’s bed. Thanks to jo and alan for taking care of me when I was completely knock out.

I guess I had a memorial vday vomiting all over the place hahaha!!! Haiz actually the whole I was very miserable as every where I go, I will see couples holding hands and laughing and smiling and enjoying each other company. It really reminds me of those happy times I had with her. Worst of all, I want to the place that I purposed to her. All of a sudden I wish I wasn’t there at all. I still can remember what and where we ate. The movie we watched and the way I asked her “ will u be my ….” Then the trip back to her house and I sent her to the lift. All these wonderful times seems like it happen yesterday.

Anyway the hang over is still killing me. The head seems to be still turning and just still feeling very tire. Sian…. no alcohol for the next one month I promise……

confused and need directions

My vday.....nothing special...actually nothing at all

2006-02-14T00:39:00.000-08:00

Dear blog,

I had an enjoyable evening with my childhood friend. We had dinner and did lots of catching up. I was surprised how much we growth from the naught, cute little Lydia and the full of nuisance Samuel to a beautiful young lady with a stable well paid job and still full of nuisance Samuel but now a more mature and probably better looking hahaha!!!!! You Ji Hui……. Anyway we did lots of talking and laughing about our past and we also gossip a bit about our batch of youths. Like who is attached to who and who like who those kind of stuff. Guess what we did next, all of sudden she felt the itch to fish and we went all the way to pasir ras fishing pond to kill that itch. Hahaha cant believe a girl will feel this way. So we went to the sure catch pond and paid 30 bucks to catch 3 fish( 10 bucks per fish is the rates). True enough the sure catch pond live up to its name and we managed 3 decent fish within an hour( mostly sea bass). We brought one of the fish to the nearby food centre and they streamed it hong kong style for us. It tasted superb. Nothing beats steam fresh fish. I guess both of us enjoyed the fishing and the fish too but of cos I enjoyed her company the most. I was quite surprised that those fish we caught really gave her a good run for our money. Ok the night ended when I sent her home and guess wat she gave an adidas perfume set with powder and etc. I was really happy cos I have not received such a nice gifts for along time. Hmmm….but I guess she makes a very good friend that I will like to treasure, someone who can share the same interest with me. However I ever tot of being together with her but I guess that is not quite possible cos it is just the feeling I guess. Just no feelings for her.

I always believe before u can even like someone, you must have at least some feelings for her. This feeling will then bring you on to liking her then finally loving her. I guess this feeling don’t come easy for me. So far I had only feelings for 3 girls and all 3 were my girlfriend once. However the 3rd one feeling was different from the rest. I don’t why but maybe like what I said this feeling cant be explained it just come to you naturally without you even knowing it. This feeling came to me when I was with her and I was so strong that I knew it was her that I really want. It was her that I willing to leave everything behind and just follow this feeling. It was her that made feel how to love someone so unconditionally. It was her that made me skip a heart bite whenever I am close to her. And it was her who torn my heart apart……….However this feeling always seems to there I just can stop having this feeling around esp when I am think of her.

I tot by keeping myself busy by activities and meeting new girls will help me slowly forget about her and move on. I wrote that I was so happy after another weekend, YA! YA! Am I really happy and satisfied with myself? Every weekend seems to missing something. The long train ride to Bedok and the bus ride to her house, late night supper with her mother and aunts, gossip and small talk with her cousin, the licking and jumping of her 2 adorable dogs, the long talks on the bed before we fall asleep, the afternoon breakfast cos the 2 lazy cant wake up…… suddenly all this seems to be missing. But the biggest part that was missing and still missing now is her.

Many times I tot getting over a relationship is not that tough but I was wrong. Esp when u are so in love with the other partner, the world seems like it had fallen apart. Everyday I am waiting patiently for that one day I mentioned earlier in other posting. Will this one day really come or will I just be waiting in vain. Or should I just force myself to think it is all over. Or maybe I should lie to myself that that day is coming and it will come. How long can I wait I really don’t know. Is it worth it? I really have no answer and I am just as confused.

Anyway this vday will be just another normal day. Probably I will head back to my messy room and tuck myself in bed. I will try not to think about what I actually planned to do to surprised her on our 2nd anniversary. I will try not to think about how happy she will react when she saw it. I will try not to imagine how that night will be. I wll try not to think what will she give me in return. I will try not to…. I will try, I will try real hard I promise…………

This song is specially for her and I really mean it.

Imagine that your heart would beat for me
you know that I'm waiting patiently
till you're by my sideevery day;
every nightbaby
you're the one I need can't you see
you know my heart is beating just for you
baby I don't seem to find the clue
to be by your sideevery day and every night
but I feel my heart is aching without you

Maybe I'll be the one
if you want me here to stay
Maybe I'll be the one
to guide you all the way
No I'm never gonna hurt you
you're always on my mind
and I'll be the one untill the end of time

Sure there is a way for you and me
together and forever it will be
I'll be by your side
every day and every night
but I'll feel my heart is aching without you
Maybe I'll be the one
if you want me here to stay
Maybe I'll be the one
to guide you all the way
No I'm never gonna hurt you
you're always on my mind
and I'll be the one until the end of time

I'll the one if u want me really.....

Weekend review

2006-02-12T18:07:00.000-08:00

Dear blog,

It was yet another great weekend which made me excited over many things. Even though vday is just round the corner and i am still without a date but CARE!!! Who needs a date for vday. I will be going out with my childhood friend on the eve of vday and I guess it is a good time to do some catching up with each other as we had not done a heart to heart talk for a long time. I still could remember we always like to share about each other relationship problem and I enjoyed our trip together fishing at Tioman. I will try to post some pics of our fishing trip here soon if I can find them hehehe. Furthermore she will fishing with me this sat during the NTU nanyang lake fishing competition. Wow seldom see a pretty girl ask me to bring her fishing hahaha. So I will be looking forward to this weekend as I guess It will be very exciting.

Friday fishing was ok as we only managed one monster by my lucky fishing kaki weizhang. It was probably ard 5kg plus. Even though fishing was slow that night, I enjoyed the company. Andrew, Yixin, wz and myself had a great time laughing our heads off with Yixin super cock jokes and interesting way of tackling girls. He managed to link fishing with wooing girls. You must be at the correct spot at the correct time using the correct bait and of cos with a bit of luck in order to catch the correct fish. This goes the same like finding the correct girl. There is no point chasing after the girl with all the wrong method, cos most likely it will fail. But u never know even when u are at the wrong place at the wrong time using the wrong bait, u may still catch the fish after all. So luck does play an important part too.

I managed to find some time on Sunday to make a trip to JB to settle some hall stuff. Ah bin came along too and I all of a sudden decided to do my hair. Yup I coloured my hair and had a cut too. But I regretted a little about colouring my hair as I am still in my attachment and I guess with a golden hair ah beng in the office will surely not give my boss a good impression. But never mind like I care, cos I already took almost one mc per week and guess my days are number. Anymore mc means I may get sacked hahahah…..SIANZZZ

It is going to be a tiring week ahead as there will be 4 back to back event this week and on wed my hall will make history by lifting the sports champ cup. YEAH!!!! Finally after 3 years of hard work. I have to thank the entire sports player for their hard work and of cos my dear JCRC too. Keep up the spirit guys, we can achieve even more if we stay united.

Trust in the Lord and He will bless with greatness you cant imagine.

a fulfilling night of excitement

2006-02-10T18:09:00.000-08:00

Dear blog,

I really had a great time during the dialogue session with our dear PM and a few of his dear minister too. My fav minister Dr Vivian was there too and he is my idol because of the way he speaks. He really speaks with charisma and the way answer touchy qn regarding to racial issue was simply so perfect. I guess I will love to learn how he can present his idea and also speak with the same amount of charisma too. But I guess in order to speak well in public comes with lots of hard work and practices. I also love to speak in public, to inspire others, to move people’s feelings and also encourage or motivate people with my words. I guess all this comes with lots of hard work.

Anyway the dialogue session was very enriching and educating as it gave me a real eye opener on how deadly terrorism can be in Singapore. The information given by the ISD was really scary and I must admit that Singapore government had done a great job in protecting us from any attack so far. I guess the racial issue in Singapore in worse than what I tot. It seems that there are a lot of disagreements on a few of the policy setup by our government. But personally my country had progress a lot ever since it had racial riots and fights so often that the police had to use curfew to control such conflicts. I really cant imagine what kind of life will it be when u leave ur door step and uncertain when u will meet another racial riots or fight. I guess it took our government lots of efforts and hard work to change our mind set and improve the relationship between each race. I am proud to be part of the multi racial community as it is result of the hard work of our government.

Okie enough of all those serious stuff. My night ended with a bang hahaha!!!! I guess KR hall cheerleaders will know why. I took a cab to NUS KR hall with NUS SU pres Danny and we had a great time discussing and exchanging inform on our school system. And guess wat, I had a great welcome from kr cheerleaders when I reached kr. Wow so many cai. Hahaha!!!! Okie beside the cais I think kr is a very nice place and it has a very warm environment. I managed to meet up with some of the cheerleaders and I can tell that they really had the passion for cheerleading. I guess the person who impressed me the most was their captain, Stephanie. She is so hyper active and her energy level never seems to run out. Her passion for cheerleading, dance or any cultural stuff was fantastic. I will really like to have a few of such talent in my hall. Great knowing u girl and hope we can continue to keep in contact.

However the highlight of the night was on the way back to ntu. Guess wat, the mats flew off the lorry and on to the AYE hahaha!!! We had to turn back and picked them up. I guess this incident scared the wits out of Steph as each mats cost 80 bucks. Anyway we only lost one but I intent to “borrow from src and not return” hahaha!!!CARE!!! But the best piece of news was when kr master aka hall counsellor decided to buy 120 new mats for kr. I guess my hard work did not gone down the drain, My intentions for putting so much effort in borrowing all the mats for kr were to first hope the cheerleading spirit can cultivated in NUS too, to improve the relationship between kr and hall 2 lastly but I don’t know if it is a reason too, was the sweet voice I heard over the phone. Hahahaha guys!!!!! Anyway I hope kr and hall 2 can work closely in the near future so as to allow our residents to benefit from it.

I guess it is about time for me to move on. I don’t know what to expect now. My weekend seems so pointless and boring. Nothing much to look forward to, maybe just the weekend fishing at my fav spot. I probably must really find someone to company me during my weekends, someone to cheer me up when I feeling down, someone to share my joy with, someone who will miss and think of me, someone who will touch me with simple stuff she does…… I guess this someone is out there and it is up to me to look for her. I guess I cant just seat back and continue to cry over what happened in the past. Who will this someone be, I really don’t know but I guess I have some on mind but I just don’t know how to start it going. Probably lose touch of all my wooing skills and tactics hahahaha!!!! Anyway I will start slowly and just hope the correct one will pop by soon.

Kr cheerleaders rocks

The Friendships I missed out

2006-02-08T21:43:00.000-08:00

Dear blog,

Finally I had 2 wonderful and enjoyable days after be through so much pain over the past weeks.

Firstly my hall cny dinner rocks, even though the service and food sucks but the company was solid. I never had such wonderful time cheering and laughing with all my close friends and of cos my dear JCRC. Thanks guys, all of u made me realized wat I had really missed out all this while.

Next in line was our 4 nation competition that made my day. Even I did not play much as usual but I guess it was the company cum jokes made every game interesting and funny. Not to forget we are the champion yet again for this 4 nation competition hahaha!!!

Last night I played majong with my primary school friend, JC friend and an uni friend. WOW all across the education system. Even I am the biggest winner whhahah!!!! But I enjoyed all the crap and rubbish we talked abt the whole night. Even though I completely stoned out now in the office, I think it is really worth the effort. It is not about the money but is about the friendship between us. These are the stuff I guess I missed out dearly.

Anyway I will be meeting our dear PM(Prime minister) wow sounds good right hahaha!!!! I will be meeting him to play majong and will try to cheat some of our national reserve for my use. Hahaha !!!! You Ji Hui. Ok, I will attending some dialogues session regarding community engagement programme. Sound so complex right.! I guess it is just trying to get the youths more involve in healthy activities. Just hope tonight session will be fruitful cos I love to hear very influential ppl speak. It is because there lots of thing I can learn from the way they present their idea hahaha!

However the only low point of the two days was last night when I went over to hall 5 bazaar. It brings me back to all those time when I used to walk over to her every night and company her. I still remember the no of steps and no of walkway lamp leading to her hall. I still remember all those notice board and buildings on my way to meet her. Esp all the same faces I meet every night on my way to her room. All the hi and bye friends I knew when I was staying over in her room. I still can smell the aroma of her room when I walk pass it and the small flight of steps that I used to trip over when I am leaving her room. The toilet that I had visited when I had to answer the call of nature. All these things all of the suddenly start to flash pass my empty mind and heart. I don’t know should I be happy when I think of such happy memory or sad when I know I all these are just history. All I know she had left behind a lot of unforgettable memories that will also be there and all the memories will make me feel that YES I did found love once but……

I guess love has its way and I know one day love will be back knocking on my door again. I just too afraid to start another again and I also not sure wat I really want. Probably I have to pick myself up and again. Probably I need to start trying start wooing again. But who hahaha it is for u to guess cos even I do not know who I really want.

Happy go lucky

a glimpse of hope

2006-02-06T21:00:00.000-08:00

Dear blog,

I was so happy when she told me that she had not given up on us. That is great so I guess this ‘one day’ may actually happen. I just have to leave it to God to decide my fate.

Anyway tonight will be our first game that kick start our 4 nation competition with 3 uni, 2 from Malaysia and 1 from China. I guess our whole team will not be expecting much from these 3 games as our opponents are strong just hope we can give them a run for their money.

I am actually looking forward to my hall cny dinner which is tonight at Gold Coast Restaurant. The food should be good according to my aunty killer Chenyuan as he managed to sweet talk the aunty there to give us 1 more extra dish. To my surprise he also managed to get $400 worth of vouchers from them too just for their restaurant to be printed on 2 pages of our Hall 2 year book. WOW!!! He is really good. Potential insurance agent or maybe conman hehehehe….

Before I eat snake and leave early from work, let me show you some pic of my fish at home. Presenting to you my peacock bass.

It feels good to be hopeful in a positive way

wat a weekend

2006-02-05T23:13:00.000-08:00

dear blog,

i will not say i had a great weekend or a bad one either. Probably just another normal one with just a few highlights here and there.

Firstly it was my hall production. I have to agree that it is surely very funny and i guess everyone who went and watch it, had a great time laughting their heads off. Well done hall 2 production for pulling up yet another wonderful performance.

Next was an uneventful fishing trip to my usual fishing spot which produces nothing. The whole night waiting for the big one to come but... HAHA i guess the fish had the last laught as they see two idots trying to out smart them. Anyway i will post some pic of the big one that was caught during the last trip.

Hiaz....wat is wrong with me. I knew that it is all over but i just still cant get her our of my mind. My mind is strong in telling myself it is over but my heart is still so soft. My heart is still telling me that there is still hope that she will come back one day. Maybe one day she realised my love and commitment for her is true and unconditional. Maybe one day she know thats i treat her the best. Maybe one day she realised she love me too Maybe one day.......maybe one....

Just maybe one day, maybe one day this day will not come. It is all just maybe....maybe this maybe will never happen.

This is the song i wanted too surprised her during our 2nd year.....but i guess i will never have to chance to sing this song.....

Don´t give up on us, baby
Don´t make the wrong seem right
The future isn´t just one night
It´s written in the moonlight
Painted on the stars
We can´t change ours

Don´t give up on us, baby
We´re still worth one more try
I know we put a last one by
Just for a rainy evening
When maybe stars are few
Don´t give up on us, I know
We can still come through

I really lost my head last night
You´ve got a right to start believin´
There´s still a little love left, even so

Don´t give up on us, baby
Lord knows we´ve come this far
Can´t we stay the way we are?
The angel and the dreamer
Who sometimes plays a fool
Don´t give up on us, I know
We can still come through

It´s written in the moonlight
Painted on the stars
We can´t change ours

Don´t give up on us, baby
We´re still worth one more try
I know we put a last one by
Just for a rainy evening
When maybe stars are few
Don´t give up on us, I know
We can still come through

Don´t give up on us, baby
Don´t give up on us, baby

First catch report for my blog

2006-02-02T19:17:00.000-08:00

andrew and me

the raped snapper

11kg black tip shark
dear blog,

yup i guess the last post was due to some hang over disappointment i had last night. Huh so pls forgive me.....

Anyway decided to post some fishy stuff for this fishy world....

This is my catch report for my eastern bank trip which was a last min one as my good friend weizhang had to play an ivp game and cant turn up for this trip. Anyway i am thankful my buddy Andrew managed to pon his workshop to company me on this trip.

Here it goes.....we started out quite late due to some late comers plus the super lazy and slow port clearance. We managed to wet our lines ard 4pm and catch lots of hard tail scar. Probably at least 30 plus of them. Night fishing was bad only a few table size tandan and sweetlip were caught. The only better catches were a golden snapper and a grouper ard 1kg each.

However the highlight of the night was when a school of black tip shark decided to pay us a visit and created some havoc on the boat. Quite a no of burst off but i managed to catch 2 but losing one at the boat side. The one that was landed was ard 11kg. Yeah!!! shark fin for cny.

Anyway morning was the same hard tail scar but they came back in bigger no and bigger size. We landed more than 40 of them in the short 2hr. However my snapper was raped by a even bigger grouper. Probably he ate the fish i caught when i pulling it up half way. In the end i managed to pulled it out of its mouth and guess wat the grouper helped me descaled my snapper.

On the whole it was enjoyable cos this trip was meant for me to take a break from all the troubles and worries. I guess i works out well as i good work out with the sharks cum the great company from my fishing kakis.

fishing rocks

"You Ji Hui "

2006-02-02T18:58:00.000-08:00

Dear blog,

Yup "you ji hui" means 'yeah! got chance' or another word means it will never happen. This is wat i know will never happen when someone u love for 2yr tells u that i want to consider my opinion when another guy just step in for ard 1 month. She claim she wants to chosse someone that will work out evenually and someone that will last. Why didnt the 2yr we had good enough to proof my commitment and love. Wat else u want? So guess wat she said, a break will be great so she will consider which will work out best. Yeah right!!! " you ji hui "!!!! I will just stay in my own cell and let another guy day by day getting closer to u. Then u tell me u will chosse which one can last. "you ji hui "

The 2 yr we shared our life with each other means nothing to u at all. I was so dispapointed when someone can just step in shake our relationship that we built for 2yr. Nvm i learn my lesson and i will not be so stupid and wait for u to consider ur opinion.I believe you have completely not more feelings for me. I can feel it and that's it. It is over. All the best for ur search for the one who u think will last. Cos i guess from the way u handle our relationship, i guess u may not be the one i looing for either.

Thanks for all the joy u bought me over the 1yr 10 months and even more grateful for knocking some sense into my head thru the last 2 months that u r not the kind of peron i can grow old with.

sad and disappointed

my first post

2006-02-01T23:24:00.000-08:00

yo guys,

guess wat ur old fashion samuel is getting a blog. Can u believe it? hahaha.Anyway i have so many things to say but i just cant put it down to words now. Too many stuff that is disturbing me, too many just too many. Probably i will just express some of my feelings today.

All of a sudden i felt life seems so completely meaningless. I just dont know y but yup i just felt this way. I guess too many set back happened all ard the same time that is y. I just see no reason is doing anything or feel for anything. My feelings just totaling turn ice cold. Probably after u suffer the greatest pain any mankind can ever experience u will understand how i feel.

This pain is called the pain of love. Love is such a wonderful experience which everyone is searching from the moment they step into this world. Some spend their life time seacrhing, some found it and live happily ever after however some finally found it but love decide to leave them. That is the most painful experience, even more painful than losing a love one to death.

Dear God i really hope such painful experience will only come once is their lifetime. Cos i cant imagine me can go thru it twice.

Anyway on the brighter note Ntu IVP basketball won their 5th champion in the row. Yeah!! I am grate i was part of this team cos i missed out on the championship last year cos i chosen her over basketball. I also chosen her over everything else but...........

headless fish